Are you sure?

Lately he's been so nice to me. We have our arguments and everything but at the end of the day, hes still mine. What scares me are not the arguments because i know i have a way t fix it. What scares me the most is that he might be lying to be. what scares me the most is that im so madly in love with him. what scares me the most of all is that he's being so nice to me. i feel as though im bathing in love and im so scared that one day when i wake up, it'll all be gone. i wish theres a way for me to read his mind. tobe completely honest, i trust him more and more everyday. to a point where i feel like i can completely trust him again. It should be good right? no. i am scared that when this happen, it wont last. i cant have another heartbreak again. not now. its too soon. today on the bus, i asked him what he meant by the text "i love you. im sorry". he said he feel as though we're moving too fast again and in a way i feel like that too. but how do you slow down a relationship that is as hot as the sun? sometimes i pinch myself to see if this is all real. and no matter how many times i do so, it still feels like im dreaming. if its a dream, i dont want to ever wake up, i want to be in the coma. i want to be in this love drunk coma and never wake up. if i wake, it might all just fade away again. i dont want to lose this, lose him. He said "you make me happy" and i replied with "im glad im doing my job as your girlfriend =] nothing makes me happier than you happy, especially since im the reason =]" and he said "Tehe :-) you r" i feel like the luckiest person ever. PLEASE DONT LET THIS END!

came across this picture again and cant help but remember that wonderful day where i cant stop feeling sad. im so glad those days are over. =]

A depressing yet insanely happy day

HAHA! so today i woke up with baby still on the phone. i went like "hello? hello? ok im going to pee" without him realizing. i know hes going to be so tired today yet im still shaking in fear of our conversation from yesterday. I guess maybe i should just let him relax today...dont want to cause him more stress like he said this is making him. at school he was so sweet, kind of surprising. The the heart attack came during chem and physics. He said "i love you. im sorry" then i got so scared! i thought.....but then it wasnt. that was the scariest hour of physics ever. after physics, he texted me "locker?"and i wrote "yes". the second i saw him i couldnt help but hug him as tightly as i could. it felt astho i might lose him any second but he proved me wrong. he said he was sorry about being a grumpy snorlax this morning. i honestly love him more than i can imagine. i like loving him,i like like like like it! oh...by the way hes that handsome guy right there in the picture. if ur thinking that its the black guy, YOU ARE WRONG! lol! <3

TRACK MEET TODAY! i ran the mile and i did better than i thought. I came in first according to the paper. i watched honey run and he also got first in the 1000m. what made me upset was that this idiot who clearly need glasses with no manners bulldozed him after he finished. Isaiah crossed the finish line and the kid from Dorchester just ran right into him and make baby fall. it upset me so much =[ but my lover is so nice he just walked away.

After track he didnt feel so well...so he went home right after. so i went home with darlene. life is pretty good right now. i hope it stays this way forever! =]

I love my day -_-

Today was supposed to be wonderful. SUPPOSED TO. today i was going to hang out with my friends and it was supposed to be wonderful. the sky was bright and it was sunny and it seemed like everything will be good. i woke up at 4:44am to a text message to my new/old boyfriend. it was so sweet i loved it. i fell back asleep and later he texted me at 7 something to tell me that hes going to church and that right after church he will come out and see me. He did and we went to Chinatown together with Yanlee, Olivia, Brian, and Beckett. After that we went to eat at this cafe and then we went to downtown. Thats when everything is horrible. The homewreker called and i got upset like all the other girls. then hes going to YMS with that unholy person. then he decides to not pick up my call and not text me back. i love how u can tell me not to worry and then pull this shit. fuck this shit im done

MACHO!

This is Macho. he's going to be a football player when he grows up! Best dog ever? I think so =]