First Real Date?

today i woke up at around 9:20 to my baby's text. i have noticed that some of my best days are created by waking up to his text. today we were going to go to the movies to water The Grey. i have no idea what it is about but if he picked it then its probably good. i got to the theater a few minutes before he did and when he got here, we watched the movie. after the movies, we got on the green line and went to Tin Tin's buffet. we met up with beshaunn, brian, daiquann, jesse, eric, sonny, kathy, and shane. we ate and afterward went to sonny's house and watched a few videos. i got to lay down with isaiah and it was very comfortable. one thing that i didnt like was the fact that other people keep "abusing our feelings" about the PDA which we dont even do anymore. i can see that it kinda hurt his feelings and at the same time it hurt mine. i felt unwanted at the house and at tin tin's. im so glad babe didnt see it or he might get very upset also. i dont like it when its like this. i hate how people cant just accept us...it really suck sometimes. after sonny's house,Jesse drove me,brian, and kathy home. when we were almost at brian's house, we got pulled over by a policeman. it seemed like something straight out of a movie. it was crazy. i got home at around 8:15. Daiquann drove isaiah and the rest of the people home. i have a confession. idk if its good or bad. i feel as though isaiah isnt crazy about me anymore. idk if its good or bad. we went to the movies today for the first time in a long time and we basically kissed less than 10 times. no super makeout, nothing. just simple kisses...maybe tongued 3 times but thats it. idk if its good that we dont go crazy anymore or if he just dont want to kiss me. its bothering me so much but i cant even tell him. im scared. over all it was a very very good day...but i think im just too insecure or something. please let it be that. i dont want to end it with him again. i dont want him to cheat on me again. im scared...terrified. i just hope he can prove me wrong every time. another thing...he keeps telling me that he like me but its barely i love you. does he just like me or does he like and love me? every time he saids "i like you" part of me dies a little.not that i dont want him to like me...but i want him to love me. they say like and love are the same thing except when you love someone you will never let them go. but when you like someone, its a simple attraction, that it will fade away. i dont want us to fade away. never. Please Babe, never let me go?