so much has happened for the past few days...

that i feel so alone, like im no help to anyone. i found out that im going to go to China during February vacaction. i should be happy right? but no...the only reason why im going back is because m grandma's health is failing. if you dont know already she is the most important person in my life.i dont want her to leave me...NEVER! i cant even bare the thought of it. it sucks. and another thing, it means i wont be able to see isaiah for more than a week..im going to miss him so much...i told him to behave...............................while im gone................i hope he does..........................and i hope HOPE wish that my grandma will be fine....